Back to the Roots of Life – Photo from Canva
Before I get to the root of this article I just wanted to say that I try to be as open & honest about our lives with you as I can. Sometimes what I write is so deep & personal that Roger & I decide that it would be best just kept between us & God. But this felt like something I needed to share, because I know we are not the only ones struggling in this journey of life.
The other day my husband & I got into one of our late night deep thought provoking conversations that we have every few months or so. These conversations are usually brought about by something significant that is happening in our lives, & this conversation was no different. For the first two years of dental school my husband has had very good grades, not because school comes easy for him, but because he studies a crazy amount each day – even when tests are weeks away – but starting the first week of his third year everything began slipping away. We knew that the 3rd & 4th years of dental school are 50% luck & out of our control, but we didn’t realize how much that was going to affect him. The reason so much of your grade depends on luck is because you become dependent on patients & because grading becomes more subjective than concrete. After his first week back to school in July we knew it was going to be a tough year. While some students had been given enough patients to be scheduled for months in advance other students – like my husband – didn’t even have enough patients to make it through the next week.
The stress of this school year has begun to seep into all aspects of our life to the point that it feels like we are suffocating. I say we because my husband is not in this alone, & when he hurts, I hurt, when he is stressed I am stressed, & right now I am feeling the pain with him as all his hard work feels like it is slipping away. In our late into the night heart to heart we realized that we had lost sight of what was most important & had just started going through the motions without seeing the value.
Not only had we become so focused on the here & now, we had also lost sight of what our real end goal is, heaven. We let our doubts outweigh our beliefs which caused our future to became clouded by uncertainty. We had become so focused on being good Christians that we forgot to be Christ-like. Instead of nurturing & growing our roots deeper in our faith & our God we let them shrink & wither in our focus on self. We became so focused on our earthly goals & dreams we forgot how to live a purpose driven life.
So now we are working on growing our roots, individually & together. We realized we needed to dig deeper in order to remember why we are doing what we are doing & to remind ourselves what our end goal should be – something that is beyond the treasures of this earth. We know that the coming days, weeks, months, & years will be hard, but all we can do is our best, & if we give it all to God we know that He will see us through to the end – to our future.
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