This last week has been a struggle & I will admit fear has broken my heart many times.
This last week has been a struggle. If you are wondering where I have been or why I have been so silent on Domestically Blissful & social media it’s because my heart has been incredibly heavy. I won’t go into any details because we are still
knee waste head deep. I love my blog but there are many things, such as God & family, that must always come first (& I am trying really hard to do better with prioritizing life). But since it has been awhile since I shared anything new with you (for good reason) I knew I needed to drop in for a quick minute to share what has been on my heart.
Over the last week fear has come into our lives. It didn’t creep up slowly, but rather came quickly & suddenly. This fear gripped Roger & I tightly & ranged from physical to spiritual fear. It has made us reevaluate everything, & I mean EVERYTHING, about our future. This fear has not only broken my heart (on several occasions with gut wrenching sobs), but has left me feeling crippled & scared.
The one good thing that has come from this fear is that it has shocked & woken us into reality. We have lived too long in lethargy. We have spent too much time planning our future on earth rather than our eternal future with Christ.
Our fear hasn’t forced us into a spiritual change (2 Timothy 1:7). Rather it made us realize that we needed to make a choice. As you know, our whole life is about to change. Roger is finishing dental school, we are moving, & he will be starting his first job as a dentist. We have been preparing for this change the last 4 years, especially these last few months. Change is inevitable for us, but only on a superficial level (Hebrews 13:5-6).
God is calling us to a higher level of change.
We have two choices. We either depend on ourselves & the ways of man or we choose dependence on God (Romans 8:15). We have chosen God.
And while fear of our earthly future will still exist, because let’s face it we are human, we are secure in our knowledge & faith in Christ (Isaiah 41:10 & 13).
So no matter the pain or struggle, no matter what the future holds I will not let fear control my life, bliss will permanently take up residence in my heart (1 Corinthians 16:13). Not because it is easy in this sinful dying world, but because I have a reason to be blissful about my future (Psalm 27:1). Not my future on this earth, but my eternal future, the future my husband & I will have with our Savior. So no matter what comes next in life I pray that God will give me strength, give us strength, as we hold hands & look to Him as our Provider, Deliver, & Savior.
I’d love to hear your testimonies of faith over fear!
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With love, G
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil;
For You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.
You who fear the Lord, trust in the Lord;
He is their help and their shield.
Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them;
for the Lord your God, He is the One who goes with you.
He will not leave you nor forsake you.”
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