Why Don’t You Like Me? My confession as a blogger & my hope as a Christian.
Every morning, before I have even climbed out of bed, I do something I know I shouldn’t & almost always immediately regret. I look to see if you like me today.
Depending on the number of views I have when I wake up I can determine if you love me, like me, are unsure of me, or think I’m not worth a moment of your day.
Some days I jump out of bed in excitement, other times I just want to go back to sleep & hope to wake up to a different existence & different reality.
And all too often I wonder, Why Don’t You Like Me?
Now in all fairness this has nothing to do with my loyal & faithful readers. The majority of my views are from new viewers, people who have never been to my blog (unless they have deleted their cookies).
Sometimes I will post something that I think is awesome & that I am really excited about sharing with you & it will get a minimal number of views, & occasionally (& miraculously) a few days (or weeks) later that post will take off & I’m left here looking all confused as to why & how.
I wonder why you didn’t like me yesterday, but love me today or why you loved me yesterday, but hate me today.
I wonder why the first few hundred people who read my post didn’t like it enough to share it, & why those who read it now love it so much they pin, share, or tweet, or even all three at once.
I wonder how I can make it happen more & sooner.
Now believe me when I say, I know you have a life, I know you aren’t sitting on the edge of your seat waiting for a new post from me. I know the world does not revolve around me. I’m not that conceited or self-centered.
However, I must admit, there are days where I wonder why it is you don’t like me one day & love me the next.
But then I begin to wonder, does God feel the same way about me?
Are there days when He’s jumping for joy at my attention, love, & devotion, while other days He stands by eagerly waiting for me to show even a little bit of acknowledgment.
Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you;
therefore He will rise up to show you compassion.
For the Lord is a God of justice.
Blessed are all who wait for Him!
The thought both worries me & makes me feel ashamed.
Way too often I will start the day strong with Him & end it alone in selfishness & pride. Other days I even begin without fully stopping to celebrate God’s love, care, & faithfulness in my life.
I have no excuses & no one to blame but myself.
The Lord is not slow in keeping His promise, as some understand slowness.
Instead He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.
2 Peter 3:9
My relationship with God is mine & mine alone. God is waiting for me to pick up His word & read the love letter He wrote to me. He is waiting for me, craving for my attention, knocking to see if I am ready to put away my silly ways for something deeper & more meaningful.
Here I am!
I stand at the door & knock.
If anyone hears my voice & opens the door,
I will come in & eat with that person, & they with me.
I can easily go through the motions of Christianity, but unless I truly make an effort to connect with Him & grow the relationship, I am cheating myself out of a beautiful & loving friendship with my creator.
I don’t ever want God to question our friendship & wonder “Why don’t you like me?”
With love, G
I will sing of the Lord’s great love forever;
with my mouth I will make your faithfulness known through all generations.
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